Please hide my identity. I am very ashamed of myself and I don’t know what to do at this point. I have done something terrible and I don’t even know how to get myself out of this mess. I am a married woman with a child. My marriage is currently 4 years old and although I have had issues with my husband, I still love him and try so much to be a good wife. Before I married my husband, I was in a relationship with a guy that loved me so much.
We were madly in love with each other and we dated for two years. But after I graduated from the University, he wasn’t showing signs of coming to marry me because he was broke and still hustling. I waited for some time but I was getting a lot of suitors and as the first child, my parents were on my neck to settle down with someone. When the pressure got so intense, I knew I had to let go. I met my husband later on and he was nice to me and comfortable.
We got married and had our first child, a girl. May last year, I came in contact with my ex boyfriend who was doing so well and was married too. We exchanged contacts and spoke sometimes, although not frequently. After some time, he asked to see me just for old times sake and I agreed. We met a few times and before I knew it, we were meeting almost frequently and had sex a few times.
I found out last week that I am pregnant for him and I honestly don’t know what to do about it. I am very scared and I feel terribly ashamed and sorry. No one knows about the pregnancy yet. Not even my husband or my ex. I don’t know what to do. My husband doesn’t deserve this. I don’t want to raise another man’s child under his room, it will be so much burden for my conscience to bear. Please talk to me. I am going insane.