My Husband and i got married about 2 weeks ago. I have a son of 3.5years that really loves him and He is like father to Him.
Evrything started about 2 hours into our wedding party. My Hubby got upset at me for
him while I had a short converstion with his best man making jokes.
I “ignored” Him only because I didn’t hear him speaking to me from behind and I told Him that. He told me in that moment that- /He Has nothing to say to me and he won’t be talking to me anymore that Day./
After that I went outside and started cring. I wanted to talk to Him but he refused. Pepole came up to me and asked what’s wrong and all I could say was that I don’t know outside that my husband doesn’t want to talk to me on our wedding Day
About 2h later he came up to me mad and told me to stop cring and to go and entertain the guests. I could not bring myself to do that. I found a place where I could be alone and cried The whole night.
I came up to him in one moment to ask him to leave with me for an hour so we can talk (we had a room upstairs). He refused saing that he Has responsibility to be with our gests. I asked – what if he loses me over this? Im hurting and I need my husband. Talk to me. He responded that if I want to I can leave The wedding ring on The drawer and this way he will know if it’s over after The party.
He came upstairs after 3am. I tried to tuch Him and hug him with made him mad. He told me he came to ned to sleep off, and he doesn’t wan’t me to disturb nim. I tried to hug him 2 more Times but he phisycly pushed me away. After that he go up and wen’t downstairs to drink with his friends.
What is important is that there was never anything romantic or sexual between me and his best man.
He told me that I disrespected him in that moment by not lisening to him and that is The reason behind his words and actions.
It’s been 2 weeks and it was The worst Day of my Life. I tried to talk to Him about it but he dosn’t wan’t to. He apologised by saing “I’m sorry, now can we end this conversation?” Evry time I cried he was agry and said that I don’t have a reason to cry. Yeaterday he told me that he doesn’t have feelings of care for me, or need to Comfort me when i cry, or to be with me when I’m hurt because I destroyed it with my constant need to talk about that night and our feelings. He got up and told me that: he loves me and will protect me from enything bad in life. He huged me while I melted in his arms. He kissed me on The forehead and looked me in the eyes with warm smile on his face I remember from two weeks ago. I felt safe.
Then he took a step back and asked. “Like this? That’s what you expected?” While his face expresion changed in an instant. My heart broke. ” How was I?” I cried but in silence. I told Him that it’s His decision and I can stay his wife because of my son and finantial reasons.
I told Him that I love him, and that I will never trust him again and our marrige will be only about kids, work and finances or we get a divorce.
He tod me that I described what a Good marrige is for him and smiled. He wen’t to bed right after while I went out on The balcony and cried. He was asleep when I came back.
I known him for 10 years. He is The Love of my Life, I don’t know what I did to make nim like that. What can be wrong with me?
Im sorry for The rant and my bad English. I’m devastated and I don’t know what to do.