I’m a healthy and successful 27 year old good-looking woman and I always try my best to keep looking good. I have been married to my husband for about three years now (no issue yet).
To be truthful, I love my husband, he is a wonderful, attractive, and caring man who always tries his best to meet my financial needs but he’s short of my expectations in meeting my sexual needs. I’m really REALLY interested in sex but for some reasons my husband isn’t satisfying enough. He just goes wham wham wham and that is the end.
It gets worse now that I frequently have sexual thoughts and sex dreams involving friends, co-workers, and even relatives but never my husband, and it has gradually begun to affect my everyday life.
I love my husband and I don’t want to do anything that would hurt him in any way, but whenever I make sexual advances he has an excuse ready 90% of the time and we have sex so infrequently that making love with him makes me feel like I’m forcing him.
He believes sex is meant to only be for having children and the occasional release of pleasure. But for me, sex is a more thrilling experience, something really fun to do and enjoy with my man. I tried explaining this to him once but it didn’t go down well. More so, he is the jealous type and abhors cheating.
Soon, I began to have this recurring dream about a very cute co-worker, it’s been going on for months now and I just can’t see the guy at work anymore without mentally undressing him. I once had to hide in the toilet to masturbate with his image in mind. I don’t know why I’m like this, I’ve always had a high sex drive, and the enticement of danger and excitement doesn’t help!
I always try so hard to resist sexual temptations but this isn’t as easy on me as I always want to be touched and satisfied but my husband is non-responsive.
For instance, my husband and I were at a post valentine-party last weekend and I had to purposefully keep myself away from one of his friends that I find extremely attractive because I was afraid I might have one drink too many and find myself all over him – not to mention the friend has made sexual advances towards me before.
I feel like a horrible person for saying this but that’s exactly the truth about my condition. If I COULD have frequent sex with other men and my husband wouldn’t ever find out or be hurt by it in any way, I WOULD. But I’m already married, and that will be counted as cheating. I just don’t know what to do… I love my husband and he loves me, but he never seems to “want me” even though he claims he does – but you know actions speak louder than words! Consequently I’m finding myself wanting things I shouldn’t want.
Can there be a happy outcome to my situation? This lack of sex in my life is driving me crazy.