I was Barren so I allowed my Husband try his luck outside but now I cant bare the shame and feel I should get a Divorce – Confused Lady shares.

I’m 37yrs old married for over 10yrs now without a child.

My husband is a nice and caring young man of 42yrs every woman will pray to have. Along the line he got tired of waiting and told me that he still loves me dearly and since we can’t afford Ivf and he doesn’t want to loose me, that I should permit him to get a woman pregnant aside our marriage, that he isn’t going to marry another wife but that I should give him go ahead to atleast have one child outside pending when God will bless us with our own.

I thought this through on my mind and gave him go ahead but ever since then the love I have for him dropped to zero. I moved out of the house though but he has been begging me to come back .

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Recently I met a man online and we have been dating online he lives in a different state from me but this man has shown me what real love is all about, he is a widower of 57 yrs extremely caring and loving and Godly.

Recently he proposed to me and we have discussed extensively about our past relationships . He is not rich, he earns a little less than 300k and he has grown up kids. He has told everyone about me including his friends, pastor and children.

But I just found out that after he lost his wife some years ago, he remarried last year and the marriage lasted for only six-month before it packed up, And he never told me this throughout our discussion he hid it from me.

We were discussing over the phone and he suddenly said something which I became inquisitive about but he was forced to tell me about it mistakenly.

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This man has been so eager to marry me if not for the Lockdown we would have been done with the marriage.

I can’t continue with the relationship since he hid something as important as his marital status from me, though he broke down over the phone and cried uncontrollably like a baby.

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Now the issue is that my ex-husband is on my neck to win me back, he said over his dead body will he grant me divorce. My heart is with this other man now, but how do I forgive him and continue with him.