Please help me. I don’t know what is going on with me right now. I’m am 30 years old and I just found myself in love with a guy that is younger than I am. He is 27 but I can’t stop thinking about him. Everyday, he fills my head and I don’t know how to handle it. We used to be very good friends, we used to hang out and even about a lot of personal things. Now I have feelings for him and I don’t know how to handle it. I thought that it was mere lust but it’s been over two months and I haven’t gotten over him. We still talk very well like before but I have grown feelings for him. He doesn’t know about this because I haven’t told him anything but I don’t know what to do. He is my very close friend and I have been having a lot of thoughts in my head. I once heard of a lady in this situation and people said she should simply tell the guy how she feels.
I am skeptical about telling him because I don’t know how he will receive it. I love our friendship and I don’t want anything to come between us. What if I tell him and he starts avoiding me. It is going to be difficult for me. I don’t want to ruin our friendship. He has been a very good friend to me for about two years now so I don’t know why I am suddenly in love with him. I don’t know if it’s because of my past relationship that didn’t work out. I was dating someone for three years, even before I met this current guy. We were very close and I thought we were going to get married. However, I found out he was cheating on me with his old time friend whom he once introduced to me. We had plans of getting married. Even my family members already know him so it was a very devastating experience for me.
But luckily for me, this my current friend was always there for me. We were not close but he always check on me. He always called me and kept telling me it wasn’t the end of the world and I was going to find someone else. He made that phase easy for him and I can’t forget it in a hurry. That was also when we became close friends. Now I have fallen in love with him and I don’t know what to do. He is a very nice guy, he is younger than me but he is very mature. He speaks like an adult. Even the way he acts amazes me. He is very organized and everytime I am with him, I feel at peace. I can’t help this feeling. I spoke to an old friend and he thinks I should tell him how I feel but I am scared. How do I handle this. We both know our age.
He knows I am older than him so he treats me with respect. Although sometimes we make jokes and all but I know he respects me a lot. I wish we could have something more. The much I know, he doesn’t have a girlfriend. He is single so that wouldn’t be a problem. The few times I asked him why he wasn’t dating, he Said he was not ready. I don’t know when he would be ready to date. He is very nice. More than a lot of people I have met in a long time. He is also doing well. He has a business that is excelling, he has nice looks and speaks well. Even though I’m older than him, he is physically bigger than me and he looks more mature than I am. I honestly can’t stop thinking about him. The more I try to get over him, the more I fall for him. He is everything I want in a man. What can I do to have him? I am very desperate.