We have been married for over 6 years. We haven’t had sex in nearly two months now. And when we did have sex the last few times, I had to fake an orgasm, because I slowly was just not into him. Majority of our relationship, he usually has the low sex drive and I basically want it more than 3 times a week.
He would call me a sex addict a lot, comment how it’s not normal that I want a lot of sex, also comment that anything more than one time of sex a week is an addiction, and at one point he described the vagina and the penis being disgusting, that sex being gross and not fun and lots more things being said.
And it had been numerous of times. I always try to hint it without pressuring, try to make it fun and even encouraged going to a sex shop but there’s nothing there and he hardly reciprocated or treated the entire thing as a joke. He treated/s sex like a chore. I always got sad when I hear my colleagues having sex 4 times a week. In all likelihood, in a few months our lease ends so I may just break off this marriage and get back into the dating scene again because this is so so important to me..
I’m nervous about being single. He has been my only boyfriend and the only person I’ve had sex with. I dated him at 19, and remained with him ever since. Lately, I’ve been really horny but I honestly don’t want to have sex with him in any capacity or emotion.
I wish I could just have a passionate one-night stand or have some kind of comfortable FWB. Like, have fun for a while and just see what I like. But I have to wait two more months until I can officially break things off while we passive aggressively co-exist in the same space during a pandemic. Sigh. Anyone have a disappointing sex life? Or even have a partner who views sex so negatively?