Please keep me anonymous. I am in a huge fix currently and I need all the help I can get. I have a boyfriend and we have been dating for two years now. He is a very sweet guy. He is extremely thoughtful and comes to my aid whenever I need him regardless of how complicated the situation is. I admire him a lot and honestly, I am so proud of him and my girls think that I am extremely lucky to have him as my boyfriend. We have been together for a long time. I couldn’t imagine spending the rest of my life with someone that is not him.
He makes me happy so much and we have been through a lot together. We have actually made a lot of plans and honestly I saw a future with him. Just last week, I travelled to his place to spend the weekend with him. I haven’t seen him in over three months which is one of the longest time we’ve spent without seeing each other. I was caught up with a lot of tasks so I couldn’t travel to see him as I used to. He was so happy about me coming to see him. I was excited too.
When I got to his place, he had a lot of things put in place, he also changed his home’s decor to my favorite color and also included some things I usually to casually say. I never really knew he took note of them since I said them in passing yet he went all out to effect the changes I fantasized about. It really melted my heart. He said he wanted us to have a special dinner date at least to make up for all the times we’ve been awake. He took me to this expensive boutique and shopped a lovely dress with matching accessories for me.
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We went for the date as planned. It was an exquisite lounge which he booked specially just for the both of us. Booking such a place would be so expensive and I didn’t even dare to ask how much the space was worth. Halfway into the dinner, he proposed to me. It was just the both of us. I was flustered, confused yet I didn’t want to spend a moment without him. I said yes of course but lately I’ve been so unsure about what I want. Yes, I definitely want to spend my forever with him but I’m just not sure I’m ready to start a family yet. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to tell him to wait neither do I want to lose him. I’m confused and scared? Is it okay to feel this way?