My husband died on Tuesday and I don’t know how to navigate. I’m alone in a foreign country.

Bayo Ajibola

It’s Saturday here. He died on Tuesday and I have been on autopilot since. Now I’m sitting here on our sofa penning this post. I am 32. I’m not Nigerian, I moved here a year ago after we got married. I was having a horrible day on Tuesday. When I came out of the bathroom he had left a note on the table next to a hot chocolate. It said: Enjoy, I’ll be right back, love you so much.

He didn’t come back. Eventually the police turned up at our door and told me he had been in a car accident. At the hospital they gave me his things. His wallet, the keys and my favourite chocolate. He went to the shop to buy my favourite chocolate since I was having a awful day.

I didn’t even get to say goodbye. He went out without having to say goodbye. I didn’t get to kiss him one last time or cuddle or smell him. I’ve been trying to recollect when we last kissed that day. I keep trying to remember but I don’t know. I know we had a little pash in the morning but I don’t think it was the last kiss. I don’t remember and there will never be another kiss.

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I haven’t even told my mum yet. We normally video call her two times a week. I just told her I am busy and can’t make it. I couldn’t tell her what happend. I feel like there’s really no strength in me to talk. Our flat is full of him. I took a used tissue out of the bin just to keep something of him. I loved him so very much. I left everything behind for him and we were very happy. He was my soulmate, we laughed so much and I just felt calm with him, at home. Now he’s gone. The first night I tried to sleep in bed but I can’t. I’ve been sleeping on the couch.

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The funeral will be on Monday. His parents planned it I just went along. They asked me if I wanted to say a few words and I said yes. But what am I going to say? The love of my life is gone. He went to the store because of me and he didn’t come back. No one knows why he went there I couldn’t tell them that it was because of me. He wanted to cheer me up and it killed him.

I don’t know how to move foreward. How do I survive the funeral and after? What do I do. I can’t even cry anymore cause there are no tears left inside of me. I am so sad and all I want is a hug from him to cheer me up but then it hits me. What do I do?


Bayo Ajibola

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Comments to My husband died on Tuesday and I don’t know how to navigate. I’m alone in a foreign country.

  • This is sad story. My Sister, there is no proper or best time for accidents. They just happen. Open up your heart and direct your thoughts to God. Take with you a close friend and pray together until this wave of pain passes. Then start a life without him.Its good that you loved him to his last day. You did your duty. He did his too. This time, unknown things belong to God. Be strong and cheer up after healing. You did not cause anything.

    Sekelani Daka August 19, 2020 8:45 am Reply

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